Taylor Swift Is Gross Part 2

lol Okay so apparently one of my only blog posts that’s ever read is the one entitled “Taylor Swift is Gross” (hilarious I tell you!) so I figured I’d make a sequel

So the last time I posted about HER was when I was having major issues with my self image.  Just b/c my bf told me he thought she was “pretty” I freaked out because I look NOTHING like her! She’s tall, skinny, blonde, etc.  And I’m SO NOT! But now I’ve come to realize (after many months of working on my self image) that it DOESN’T MATTER WHAT SHE LOOKS LIKE!  I AM NOT HER! I AM MY OWN PERSON and I’M BEAUTIFUL!!!  I have done so much better in the last few weeks with NOT comparing myself to other women, whether in real life or on tv.  I’m really starting to learn to accept ME for ME!   I’m learning to love my body.

Now on that note, my 30th bday party is coming up and I’m having a karaoke party!!!!  I know this sounds CRAZY but I plan on singing a T Swift Song.  I normally do NOT like her music.  In fact I really dislike her singing and think she has no talent, despite her guitar playing.  Her lyrics are LAME and her voice is NOTHING spectacular but I must say, there is one song that has grown on me.  Back to December.  I do not know why or understand it but I love love LOVE that song.  Maybe because I can relate to that. I dunno.  All I know is that I can sing it well and I plan on karaoking it on my bday!  WOOHOO!  Plus lately I’ve had way more of an issue with Miranda Lambert willing a million awards for what?  Her voice is AWFUL and weird!!!  Anyways… I will be singing  some other classics at my party, such as Have You Ever Seen The Rain, and Aint No Mountain High Enough

Speaking of my bday party I wanna look fabulous for it!  It’s next weekend and I am hoping to lose as much weight as I can!  The dress I bought is a size 6! YES!  Okay so it’s obviously a very skewed dress size cuz normally I wear 8 or 10 in dresses but it’s stretchy and I can wear 6!  WOOHOO!

I lost 2 lbs this week and 2 lbs the week before.  Gonna try to go for more until then to reach my first goal.  4 more lbs to go! Then I will have lost 35 lbs since I started my weight loss journey last August.

Speaking of food… I’m sure you all want to see some pics so here ya go!

My Spinach Medley

My goal every week is to buy lots and lots of veggies and to actually eat them all and finish it all! So I always end up creating whatever I can come up with just to finish off my vegetables.  lol  So as not to waste   This was a bag of spinach, garlic, onions, scallions, parsley, celery, cilantro, paprika, pepper, sea salt, etc.  Just threw it all together and it was yummy and so so so low in calories! I got filled on this and only expended like 40 calories! lol

Edamame Dip

Got this recipe from my new vegetarian cookbook!  Edamame dip with garlic, cilantro, lime juice, honey, pepper, etc.  SO YUMMY!  Consistency is a lot like guacamole and terrific with crackers from Trader Joe’s (YES! I made my mom get me some last time she was in Cali).  Ah, I miss Trader Joe’s.  Okay that’s a story for another time…

Sushi Zushi

Ya know, I hate to say it but I am turning into a pescatarian.  I eat fish about once a week or seafood.  I just can’t give it up.  Fabulous night out with my girlfriends.  We had sushi! We had tea! We shopped!  We talked for hours!  I asked them to be bridesmaids at my wedding.  WAIT WHAT?!?!?!  DID I GET ENGAGED?!?!?!? Uh. No.  Not yet.  Just wishful thinking.  lol  It’ll happen one day.  Hopefully.  Believe me you will know when I get engaged.  I will be screaming from the rooftops!  Bf is graduating end of the summer… so we’re getting there…

Veggie Plate

So me and the bf went to eat at Cheddar’s Casual Cafe.  The prices are CRAZY outrageously cheap!  Most of their large portion meals are between 5.99-7.99!  CRAZY!!! Anyways I like it because they have a veggie platter where you can choose 4 veggies, plus salad or soup, and get a honey butter croissant for 5.99!!!  WHAT?!?!?!  Yeah. So cheap!

So when we arrived we ran into our old manager from where we used to work!  He was now working there!  He was so nice and bought us a spinach dip AND dessert (scroll down for picture!) Our server was awesome, she gave us free drinks too!  It was fabulous!

The best part was the honey butter croissant!  So warm and so delicious!

Double Chocolate Cake

I HATE chocolate cake and I HATE ice cream (unless it’s bluebell) but I felt obligated to eat it b/c it was a gift from our old boss who sat there with us while it was in front of us so I had to eat some!

And the best part was I was worried about gaining weight today cuz I also ate the spinach dip yesterday but today I got on the scale and to my surprise I actually lost a lb!  I suppose when you’re burning at least 1,000 calories a day, it doesn’t matter what you eat!!!  LOL

I am so excited! I am finally pushing past the point of no return! I am finally getting out of the 150s and into the 140s!  I was 149.2 today.  So excited!  There’s  no turning back!  I can never let myself go again!  I feel great! I’ve got definition in my abs, arms, and legs now!   I can endure long periods of hardcore exercise.  I look FABULOUS!!!   I am loving my new confident, self assured, wonderful life style!

 

 

 

Olive Garden Is After My Soul!!!

Olive Garden is after my soul…!!!

I never go to Olive Garden just to go.  I always go with an agenda.  I know exactly what it is I want because I CRAVE it.  Man… that place is evil!  With all their calories and their carbs and their FAT…I’m always drawn to it.  *sigh* With that confession, here are my pics of what I ate yesterday:

This was not my doing… my bf wanted the create a sampler appetizer with calamari, fried cheese, and fried zucchini.  We were going to get our usual ravioli until I realized it was filled with pork and beef.    sad.  I love that stuff!  Before anyone freaks out and lectures me about how this is why I always gain 5 lbs after eating here, LISTEN UP… I only ate a tiny bit!  Believe it or not, my bf can wolf down the entire thing himself.

I chose minestrone because t heir’s is purely vegetarian.  I must say the waiter did a VERY good job of making this hearty and FULL of veggies and not just broth like it usually is.  Kudos to him!   100 calories later…

This is what I was craving.  The Steak Cipollini Pizza.  Of course I asked for NO STEAK and extra portabello mushrooms (the black things in the pictures).  It’s irrelevant that the kitchen misunderstood the order and put NO steak OR mushrooms leaving me with just a cheese pizza, but after I pointed this out to the waiter politely, he brought it back to the kitchen for a quick fix.  Before anyone goes crazy on me and thinks I ate all 14,00 calories of this pizza… know that I only ate 2 pieces.  And no crusts.  Cuz I have willpower.  And a much smaller stomach now.  And everything in moderation right?

It was delicious and so worth every bite!!!

Oh and I’d like to add that this is a special pizza not found at all Olive Gardens.  Just the ones that are “testing” the new menus.  There’s only one OG in a nearby radius to my city where I can find it at.  Deliciousness is always worth the drive

I’d also like to note that everytime I order a pizza from there, something always goes wrong with my order.  This time, nothing was on my pizza.  Last time they made a chicken alfredo pasta instead of the chicken alfredo pizza.  lol  And one time they forgot to put in my order altogether!!!  LOL

I think it’s a sign that I shouldn’t eat this much pizza.  Oh well.

Speaking of pizza… (hahaha) here’s what I had the night before at happy hour:

SURPRISE!  What do you know?  PIZZA!!!!  NOT from Olive Garden though.  Artichoke pesto pizza that was only $4 at happy hour!  AMAZING!!!

Had to stop by Orange Leaf last night (this was my dinner haha).  A perfect end.  The amazing thing was that after adding up all my Olive Garden calories and my yogurt, my calorie count still only ended up at like 1,200 calories!  INCREDIBLE!

I tried to get on the bf’s scale but it was low in batteries and kept saying “LO”.  I just kept telling myself it was telling me I was “LO” in weight.  teehee.

I know I said I wasn’t going to weigh myself but I like to do it after I go to this soul stealing restaurant because I magically always gain 4-5 lbs immediately afterwards.  It’s INSANE!

Anyways… the end for now.   No exercise this weekend except for a little yoga and weight training.  Ok I guess that is exercise.  Nevermind then.  I’m awesome.

 

SUSHI- My Heart Belongs to You Alone!

LOL  I had sushi SO many times this week.  It’s so sad I don’t even have any pictures as proof!  It’s funny.  I guess I just forgot to take any because I was just so mesmerized by the deliciousness!  I seriously CRAVE sushi.  all the time.  Especially when I have it.  Then I just want moooooore!!!!  LOL

Ah well.  Now for some pics of NOT sushi!

 

Fish Tacos & Macaroni

Okay.  So this was the first time since becoming vegetarian that I was attempting to eat fish.  Mahi Mahi.  I took one bite, got grossed out, and decided to QUIT right then.  I was sad that I wasted my money on THAT.  Guess I will NOT be eating fish…well unless it’s raw and in sushi

Poor man’s tacos.  LOL  All my taco shells were broken upon opening the box.  This was the first time I used soy protein crumbles (meat substitute).  I could not believe how much it tasted like meat.  AMAZING!  Seriously incredible!!!  Could’ve fooled me.  Yet it was BETTER than meat!  Topped it off with some salsa, sprinkled some cheese, and some low fat plain yogurt to sub for sour cream for a delicious low fat healthy vegetarian alternative!  Even tricked the bf into eating it without him realizing it wasn’t ground beef.  BWAHAHAHAHA  I’m a tricky trickster!

Vegetarian Feast Spread

Had some friends over for a pool party today!  I have the tiniest itty bittiest apartment but I don’t care.  If  people want to come over, then HEY!  More than welcome to!  I love having people over!  So I put together a little appetizer spread…. salsa, guacamole, hummus, pickles & olives, carrots, crackers, tortilla chips, edamame,  and veggie straws!  And fresh berries for dessert.  Then we layed out by the pool and I got a GREAT TAN!!!!  So loving summertime!!!  I love not having to work and still getting paid.  FABULOUS!

The rest of the week I ate sushi.  lol I just forgot to take pics.

As for exercise… well I’ve been working hard but honestly not as hard as last week.  For some reason I was so motivated and so hardcore last week.  This week I got a little burnt out early.  Tried to work out for 4 hrs on Monday and only lasted 3.  Then Tues I had no energy and Wed, also no motivation or energy.  Today I went to my “life changing” kickboxing class with the most kick@ss instructor and was able to give my 100%.  So maybe that’s what it was… I felt dedicated to this instructor… I wanted to work for her.  She was just so positive and energetic and the other instructors were not.  It’s all about building relationships with your students and showing a genuine care for them.  I LOVE this lady, she rocks!!!  I was able to get out so much anger and frustration again in that one hour…. UNBELIEVABLE!

Alright gotta go practice my dance routine from last week before I hit up my hip hop dance class tonight.  Don’t want to be embarrassed.  My instructor says he likes my “swagger” so I mustn’t disappoint!  hehe

Anyone out there love pizza?

Or am I the only one whose weakness is deep dish pizza.  Ooey gooey cheese!!!  I WANT I WANT I WANT!!!

See?  That’s my problem.  I can never say no.

I was supposed to go out to dinner with a friend at a cafe so that we could eat healthy but instead we ended up at BJ’s.  If you haven’t had BJ’s then you haven’t had good pizza!!  SERIOUSLY!!!

To start off…

 

Fried Artichoke

Did you know this dish was only like $3 bucks?!?!?!  And my friend ordered spinach stuffed mushrooms.  Delicious of course!

Spinach Artichoke Mini Pizza

Since I’m vegetarian now I could no longer get my two favorites… The Great White Alfredo chicken pizza or the Buffalo Chicken Pizza.  Therefore I settled for the spinach artichoke cream cheese pizza.  AMAZING!!!  Of course I got the smallest one and of course I could only eat half of it because I had to save room for……

Chocolate Chunk P'Zookie

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  That’s all I can say is !!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Fresh and hot out the oven cookie with vanilla bean ice cream on top!  INCREDIBLE!!!!

To be honest I didn’t even feel guilty eating all this.

I worked out like a madwoman yesterday.  Woke up at 4:30 am for bootcamp for an hour.  Then took a spin class for an hour.  Then finished up with a zumba class for an hour.  It was my first time taking spin and I was just so proud of myself for trying something new.  I’ve been too afraid to take it in the past, thinking that I would be the slowest one and would embarrass myself.  But I did it!!!!  Even while a lot of other women dropped out after 30 min I kept going and sweated it out through the entire classtime!!!  AMAZING!!!  I’m so proud of myself!  I think bootcamp has proven to me that if I can do THAT then I can do ANYTHING!!!

I was going to try out a street jazz class at night after BJ’.s but my butt was hurting from the seat on the bike.  Does that get better?  It’s just so uncomfortable and so unnatural.  And it just HURTS LIKE CRAZY!!!  Also I was a little bit intimidated b/c I know the class is hard.  The instructor encouraged me to come and said that it was okay that I was a complete beginner and that he would help me but I dunno… I’m worried I’ll slow down the other experienced girls.  But  hopefully next week I will work out the courage to come.  I also convinced my dinner friend to join me for the dance class tonight!  I’m so excited!  I am really loving this new dance studio I go to!!!  Awesome classes.  Really nice people and really nice instructors!

The only thing I regretted from last night was that I ended up having a huge blowout fight with my bf.  I don’t know why but I get soooo super emotional sometimes and it always seems to be after I eat badly.  Does this happen to anyone else?  I started to notice this about a month ago so I started to track down everytime I got super emotional to see what I ate that day beforehand.  Last week I had pizza too!  The week before I had really fattening Mexican food!  Coincidence?  I think NOT.  I really honestly think there is a direct correlation between my bad eating and my moodiness.  Maybe subconscious feels guilty so I take it out on others?  Or maybe it’s self sabotage to punish myself for eating badly?  I don’t quite understand it yet but if anyone has any knowledge on this or experiences they’d like to share, please do!!!!  Because I need to figure out what the hell is going on and recognize the problem and put a stop to it.

And on that note… going out to eat again now.  Will post pics later!

Lots of Pics of Yummy Food!

I didn’t know what else to title this.  It is what it is. lol

This week I’ve worked out 10 hours.  I worked out 2-3 times a day!  I’ve done bootcamp, kickboxing, zumba, dance classes, etc.  Oh yeah and then there was the one time on the boring treadmill.  Next week  hope to add in street jazz and some beginner yoga.

The frustrating thing is that I haven’t lost one single pound.  Drives me nuts!  I just don’t get it.  I was burning like 800-1000 calories a day!  Perhaps I wasn’t eating enough calories so my body was only burning a small amount of calories per day.  Or perhaps I ate too much.  I don’t know.  Gonna do it again this week and see if it helps.  At least I didn’t weight myself every day.  I’m so glad my bf took my scale away.  I can only weigh myself at the gym and even I’m not letting myself weigh in everytime I go.

Well I did it.  4 weeks of being a vegetarian.  Pretty amazing.  Today for some reason I was craving some fried chicken and/or some chicken tenders.  Yum yum.  But I realized it wouldn’t be healthy anyway since it’s fried and I think it was just my body’s way of sabotaging itself since I wasn’t happy with my last weigh in.  It was my body’s way of responding to it by saying it’s just going to throw in the towel.  Nope.  Not gonna do that.  Cuz at least I’ve still lost the initial 6 lbs from becoming vegetarian this month which is still pretty good.  Losing 6 lbs a month is normal.  Gonna take my body a while to catch up.

It’s been a really hard and stressful week though.  But I made it through.  HOORAY! Anyways… now on to the pictures!

The BEST peanut butter I’ve ever had in my LIFE!!!  AMAZING!!!!  Especially on whole wheat toast topped with sliced bananas!  YUM!

Delicious spinach quesadillas.  Okay so not the healthiest thing in the world.  Perhaps all the cheese is why I gained weight.

Damn Golden Corral!  These were the only vegetarian options they had for breakfast!!!  Oh well it WAS delicious though! This is why I’m fat.

Their omelette was super yummy!!!  It’s hard to have to give up chorizo in my omelettes.    Ah well.  Save a pig right?

I know you’re thinking WHAT THE HELL?!?!?!  It was my first attempt at baked kale.  FAIL btw.  BIG FAIL.  It was still pretty good.  I’m going to try it again this week.  This time smaller pieces.  Less on the tray.  Less olive oil.  Less salt.  And oh yeah and not forgetting to take it out of the oven before it burns!

This was the vegetarian special at this Mexican restaurant.  Okay no wonder I didn’t lose any weight.  The good news is that I only ate like 1/3 of this and passed the rest to my bf.

The bad news is that I went to a wedding and there was MORE Mexican food.  Hrmph.  The taco still tasted great with just the veggies!  Cheese makes you forget there’s no meat

I made tofu veggie masala.  It was pretty spicy.  Hurt my tummy though.  Not making it again although it WAS really good.

Needed to detox with a spinach salad.  Mushrooms, strawberry slices, feta, and raspberries.  Very delicious and healthy!!!

This coming week is going to be hard.  I have like 5 dinners scheduled with friends and the bf.  AAAAH.  Hoping that my 10 hours of working out will help me keep my weight off.  We’ll see what happens.

 

An Idiot Vegetarian Who Orders Beef?

Um. Yeah.  That’s me.  LOL

Last night me and the bf went out to eat at our normal sushi/Korean hole-in-the-wall.  Their usual happy hour deals are Bento Boxes which comes with salad with ginger dressing, miso soup, vegetable tempura, california roll, rice, and beef bulgolgi.  It’s the cheapest deal so naturally I went and ordered it with my mind being on the sushi, the salad, and the miso soup.  Totally completely forgot about the MAIN DISH.  Even when I ordered and said I wanted the “Beef Bulgogi Bento”, it still didn’t hit me.

I’m such an idiot!  lol  It wasn’t until the waiter came and brought us our boxes that my bf said, “Um why did you order beef?”  Because I’m a frickin’ IDIOT!!!  HAHAHA  What vegetarian orders beef?  Only I would do such a thing. HAHAHAHAHA

Beef Bulgolgi Bento Box

Oh well.  It worked out well.  I gave my beef to my bf and he shared his salad and sushi.  Hilarious I tell you.  I was just like in automatic mode.

I really wanted the mushrooms in the bulgogi and I was really afraid to eat it b/c I might taste the beef but I wanted it so bad that I convinced myself to try one  just to see.  BAD IDEA!  Upon entering my mouth, I almost vomited because I could sense the beef flavor and just imagining the mushroom being cooked in the juice of the beef really made me want to barf!!!!  I had to spit the rest out and eat something else immediately to get that nasty beef juice flavor out of my mouth.  It’s so crazy b/c this dish used to be MY ABSOLUTE FAVORITE!!!

Anyways… still a DELICIOUS MEAL.

Today I went out to happy hour with some coworkers and they did have some delicious vegetarian appetizers for half price!  I got the portabello quesadillas and stuffed baby bella mushrooms.

Veggie Quesadilla

Yesterday we got some free food at bootcamp and I was so excited about FREE food until I discovered there was ground turkey in it   AWWWW MAN!!!

 

Yesterday was also a fabulous day b/c me and my friend had our own little luncheon/pool party/shopping date!

 

I cooked vegetable quinoa stuffed in baked tomatoes, baked cinnamon butternut squash, and strawberry cupcakes with homemade buttercream frosting!

 

Quinoa Stuffed Tomatoes

SOOO GOOD!  I impress myself sometimes!

 

The Perfect Cupcake!

Don’t worry.  Only ate two and a half in the last 3 days.  Gave the rest to my friend to the bf and coworkers.    I heart baking but don’t like eating my own creations.  I’m weird like that.  They WERE fabulous though!  If you are wondering what the recipe is for the frosting…

 

4 tbls. butter, creamed with a mixer.  Then add about half a bag of powdered sugar.  Then add 3 tbls. vanilla extract, and 2-4 tbls. of milk.  Mix all together until creamy.  Use food coloring to add color.  Top with fresh sliced strawberries!  SUPER EASY!

 

Today I also ended my 3 month Subway boycott.  I was so mad last time from a bad experience that I was going to give up Subway altogether.  Oh well.  Today a coworker really wanted to go.  Ah. Why the heck not.  Got the Veggie Delite.  YUMM-O!  I might as well continue eating since I got to meet Jared (YES JARED FROM SUBWAY) last month and I told him how eating Subway helped me to lose 30 lbs (it’s true!).  Also my little dance team and I got to dance for him too.  He was really nice.  Said it was great.  He looks nothing like I expected and way taller than I expected.  It was just cool meeting him… he was an inspiration when I first tried to lose weight last summer and couldn’t exercise cuz of my plantar fasciitis. I could only eat healthy so I ate Subway several times a week.

 

Anyways… that’s all for now folks!  Oh wait no.  One more small thing.  I think I injured myself.  Pulled a hampstring muscle.  I dunno.  It hurts.  I can walk ok but when I try to bend my leg it kills me!!!  Any ideas?  I’ve been icing it the last 2 days and trying to stretch but when I stretch it almost feels like it’s tearing so I’m not sure what to do!  Has this happened to anyone before?  I can’t describe the pain.  It just feels like something ripped?  But I’m not bleeding.  It feels sore like it’s bruised and I can’t lift my leg up without feeling pain.  Please, if anyone has any idea… gimme some tips!!!

 

Other than that… nothing new

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Love Is In The Air!

So.  It’s been 3 lovely years that me and the bf have been together.  Three very wonderful years.  We went out to celebrate our anniversary at a fancy smancy chocolate lounge restaurant.  I was just curious to try it out… curious to see how they use chocolate to cook their foods.

Here are some pics from our delightful evening:

Salad With White Chocolate Shavings

So bf got the calamari.  I had to try the salad that had blue cheese, fruit, walnuts, raspberry vinagrette, and white chocolate shavings.  Yes.  I said WHITE CHOCOLATE!  MMM… FABULOUS IDEA! Lovin’ this restaurant already!

 

Thin Crust Pizza

I’m not gonna lie… I could’ve gotten something else but I opted for the cheapest option, which just happened to be vegetarian.  The bf was a victim of identify theft and had no access to money at the time (cept for the little bit he had in his wallet) so I picked the cheapest thing I could find.  It was very delicious because of the ton of cheese on it!  Of course I shared half with the bf.  Had to save room for dessert!

 

Souffle w/ Dark Chocolate Sauce

YUM-O!!! Never had souffle before.  It was interesting but the dark chocolate sauce made it INCREDIBLE!

 

After dinner, we went to see X-Men First Class, which I thought was great even though we had to sit in the second row and I thought I was going to go blind after trying to focus my eyes for 2 hours on the GINORMOUS screen!  lol

 

Then the bf surprised me with such an fantastic anniversary gift.  He got me $100 gift card to my gym so I could get a personal trainer.  I cried when I opened it.  I just couldn’t believe it!  It was SUCH a thoughtful gift.  He kept apologizing and saying that he was sorry it wasn’t a “romantic” gift but that he knew how badly I wanted a trainer but couldn’t afford it.  I was just so touched because our gift limit was supposed to only be $50 and also I knew he had really listened to me and was in tune to what I really wanted.  This is something I would never pay for myself, but I really wanted.  I could get two personal training sessions.  Even if I don’t use it for that, I could use it at the spa or the cafe at the gym.  So awesome!  He also got me a insulated water bottle which I mentioned I had wanted one day.  I just couldn’t believe he remembered.  For those of you wondering why I wasn’t upset because it wasn’t a “romantic gift” believe me when I tell you I’ve already received all the fine jewelry, perfume, engraved items, mushy gifts, etc. I could ever want from my bf in the past.  This was a really special gift.  He really knew how important it was for me to focus my entire summer on my fitness goals.

 

Anyway… it was an incredible evening.  I’m super excited to use my gift card!  I’m going to wait and see how things go with the bootcamp.  If they go really well then I may not get a trainer at my gym (most of them are pervs I hear) and may get a couple massages instead   We shall see.  We shall see.

 

 

 

Lovin’ This Herbivorous Lifestyle!!!

If you’re wondering why, lemme just show you some of the amazing things I’ve been eating…

Edamame & Crab Sushi

Okay so I had a little bit of crab.  So sue me.  This was the only kind of “meat” I had all week.  I just cannot give up on seafood… it’s just too hard.  Besides this one time, I am all vegetarian Edamame was DELICIOUS BTW!!!  Have a recipe for a edamame dip… can’t wait to try that out.

 

Cottage Cheese, Raspberries, Strawberries, Cashews

I just discovered cottage cheese.  I could now live off that stuff!  Who knew?!?!  YUMMY!

 

Veggie Corndog

 

WOW.  Taste so close to the real thing!  Only 150 calories!  AWESOMENESS!!!

 

Breakfast Taco

Since I’ve been waking up to go to bootcamp early in the AM, by the time I come home I’m starved and I’m ready for a hearty breakfast!  This is my typical scrambled eggs with whatever leftover veggies I have, topped with fresh salsa on a whole wheat tortilla.  Plus a tiny bit of feta.

 

Cool New Reads

 

Decided to go to B&N and pick up some books to encourage me and to keep me going.  It’s been two weeks and one day so far.  So far so good!

 

Bub-bye evil lying scale!!!

Goodbye stupid scale!  A pic of my bf tossing my scale into his trunk.  I made my bf take it away today.  Throwing it deep in my closet wasn’t good enough.  I still found a way to dig through and find it (scavenger hunt!)  So I made him take it.  A day later, I went over to his place and his scale was in his bathroom all dusty but I still managed to take it out (so desperate it’s sad) and weigh myself.  I somehow gained 6 lbs after eating one meal.  Okay I finally believe the scale LIES.  I know I did NOT gain 6 lbs after lunch.  OH PLEASE.  So that was enough motivation for me to stop weighing in.  I learned my lesson, believe me!

 

I’ve been scale free for 2 days now!  That’s quite an accomplishment for me btw.

 

Feeling good!!!  Been doing a lot of dance and Zumba classes.  Doing bootcamp 3 times a week.  I feel great and so I’m not gonna worry about a number anymore. 

 

 

Bootcamp From Hell

… okay not really.  I survived 2 days of my new bootcamp training that I joined.  I was SCARED TO DEATH the first day.  I was expecting to be yelled at for a full hour and feel like a failure.  Almost 90% of the people at the bootcamp were already really fit and thin.  Upon arriving, my trainer greeted me with a bright smile and a cheerful “good morning!”.  He was seriously the nicest trainer I’ve ever seen.  He was so positive and encouraging yet the workout was really challenging.  He was just so supportive, it was AWESOME!  Exactly what I needed.  I felt so good after the first one, because althought I was dripping in sweat and really out of breath, and I finished close to last almost every time, I realized two things:

1) 30 lbs ago I would not have been able to do this or keep up.  I had come a really long way and I was so proud.

2) I also have a really long way to go!  But I’ll get there eventually.

A lot of the people at the camp were regulars who had been doing this for a couple months now.  They promised if I stuck with it, I would see results.  I cannot wait to tone up and see the muscle build and the fat tighten up.

Oh and at least I wasn’t last.  I was like the 5th slowest but hey… AT LEAST I WASN’T LAST!!!  FREAKIN’AWESOME!!!  I was crazy sore the next day but I don’t care.  I’m still sore… like I have no legs anymore… but I still pushed myself to go this morning and I could not believe I could still keep going.  I have NEVER been pushed this hard before.  I feel like I’m on The Biggest Loser, which is exactly what I wanted.

Plus I made a couple friends, which is great!  I’m just super excited and I feel GREEEEEEAT!

As for the vegetarian thing… I found this AMAZING recipe book where I love every single dish!  It’s been 12 days now… going strong.  Lost 6 lbs… a lot of people told me when they tried to become vegetarian they actually gained weight because all they wanted was carbs and sugar.  Weird.  I totally don’t feel that way at all.  I really do crave veggies and fruit.  Mmmmm I heart fruit.  I love papayas and they’re in season now!  WOOHOO!!!  I also really really dig tofu.  Tofu needs some lovin’ too.  I’ve been going to Whole Foods a lot and gettin’ my tofu on

Here’s some pics of what I’ve had recently when I’ve remembered to take pics

Carribean Salad @ Fridays So me and the bf got this salad at TGIFs. I ordered mine without the chicken, although I paid the same darn price at the bf. SO NOT FAIR!!!! But I loved the fruit in it and it was so worth it with the avocado slices.

My bf wanted to go to a burrito joint and I was kinda disappointed because I knew I would be majorly missing out on delicious carnitas that they have there.  Thank goodness there was a veggie burrito option and so of course I got that.  They were  amazing and hooked me up big time.  I ordered just the smallest one but by the time they filled it up with veggies, that sucker was HUGE!!!!  I did not miss out on the meat AT ALL!!!

 

Veggie Burrito

I was really craving a quesadilla so I just asked for this minus the yucky chicken.  It was really good but WAY WAY WAY too much cheese.  Cheese overload for sure.  That made me feel sick and gain back a pound the next day.  This was also the same night that I had a meltdown pity party and felt awful about myself.  Hrmmm… connection?  Yes.  Eating bad foods = me not feeling so good about myself and my body image.   

So I also got rid of my scale.  Well I hid it.  I’m going to ask my bf to just take it and keep it for me.  I am just so tired of letting a number on a scale determine my mood for the day.  I’ll let myself weight in only once a week and I’ll have to go to the gym for that.  I think this is a really smart move on my part.  I need to stop focusing on numbers and focus on getting stronger and feeling better about myself.  We’ll see how long this goes.  I’d rather be pleasantly surprised at my progress then depressed every day unless I lose a pound or two.  I also promised the bf I wouldn’t talk about weight so much.  He says I’ve been “consumed” and “obsessed” about how I look, comparing myself to every other girl out there and it’s sad but true.  Last year I was fat but happy. Now I’ve turned into this fitness monster… obsessed with trying to “fix” myself.  The bf told me that even when I get to my goal weight, if I don’t “stop this” then it will only be a matter of time before I look for something else to “fix”.  That was some tough love that was really hard for me to take.  I cried for like an hour afterwards but I realized it was true.  I had to repent to God for cursing my body and the way I look, althought I should be happy and proud that God made me beautiful just the way I am.  I was at a serious low point that night… the spinach quesadilla night.  I was also hormonal cuz it was that time of the month, but still.  What he’s saying is true.  I need to stop talking about WEIGHT and just focus on how far I’ve come and the things that I have accomplished that I should be proud of. Instead of looking at my belly pooch, I need to focus on how much of it I’ve lost.  Instead of talking about my ”sausage arms”, I need to see how much smaller they’ve become!   It’s been a FANTASTIC year for me… fitness wise and work wise… and relationship wise… and family wise.  I have nothing to complain about.  I want to become a confident happy positive person.  I’m working on it.  It won’t happen overnight but I promise it will happen.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Vegetarian = 6 Lbs Lost!

AMAZING!  So this morning I discovered that I lost 6 lbs!!!  It’s only been a week!  This is so crazy!

Right now I’m watching “Food, Inc.” and I’m discovering once again why I became vegetarian.  “It doesn’t matter if the chickens get sick.  ALL the chickens go for processing.”  EEEEW.   The entire meat packaging system is DISGUSTING!!!! My bf learned in one of his criminal justice classes that people who work at slaughterhouses have the tendency to turn into mass murderers and psychopaths. 

Today I went to a wedding where the only options for dinner were meatballs, buffalo wings, and vegetarian eggrolls.  THANK GOODNESS FOR THE VEGGIE EGGROLLS!!!   I also had a lot of tea to fill me up and some cheese squares.  At least there was one option!

So far I’ve been able to go out to eat and make things work, even if there are no vegetarian options, at least there’s salads I can get without the meat in it.  It sucks that they charge you the full price though.  That I have an issue with.

I joined a bootcamp.  It starts tomorrow at 5:30 am.  YES.  5:30.  HAHA  We’ll see how that goes.  It sounds really intense and I’m really scared but I need a challenge.  I have to face my fears and I have to lose weight!!!  I am still not even close to my goal weight. 

But I have no more excuses.  I have all the time in the world…. especially after Wednesday.  I will be free to do nothing BUT workout and eat healthy!

I’m just so excited that I found my groove again.  I finally have the motivation that I need to drop these last stubborn 25 lbs!